I'll Treat Ya Good

I again want to stress how much better I feel when I have a boyfriend. Those endorphins never disappoint. My new guy of a few months is a little older, mature, and I actually LIKE him. I will never again (I hope) just be with someone for the sake of companionship. Who knows how long it will last, but right now I am happy. And my daughter is doing well in school after some hiccups last year with anxiety issues. She is in summer school and will start the fall semester August 17.

Of course, I still have pain, especially at night, but I have more moments of distraction right now. I really want to exercise but I don't know how to get started. I can't even go for a walk because of my neuropathic feet. I have all these grand ideas that never come to fruition. I say I am going to start swimming or join a gym. These things cost money and I am barely making it as it is so I need to stop entertaining those ideas. My boyfriend inspires and encourages me. Even if it's just being more productive around the house, it's an improvement.

I hope this lasts a while. My track record suggests it won't, but I am trying not to think about that and just enjoy it.

I am having another EMG this month. It's a very painful test that determines how damaged my nerves are. My doc thinks it's spreading based on the increased pain in my hands.